Hate my family, I think?

Your parents were probably really scared when you had the eating disorder. They really love you. (Sorry, you probably hear that way too much.) People die from their eating disorders. My dad tells me that when I do something big like that I have to earn back his trust by being very "good" for a while. After like a month of not being rude or showing signs of bad behavior, he gets off my back and I'm free to do whatever.