Can this relationship be rekindled in the future? need answers?

It doesn't seem like it could be rekindled, but every relationship is different and maybe over time you guys could heal and try dating again. If you date again, could I suggest not drinking anymore? It seems that all the times you describe hurting him, it was because you were drinking. Maybe if you quit and talk to him, he would take you back. I'm sure he doesn't want to worry about you getting drunk and kissing other men if you do go out with him again.